My birthday was a few days ago! Twenty- three has never looked and felt so good!
I wanted to take some time and review some of the ways I’ve changed. It’s been three hundred and something odd days since my last birthday! That’s a lot of time for some personal growth and change.
A year ago, I was desperately lost in what I wanted to do with my life. I had no direction. I just had school and stuck in a major that no longer interested me. I found a dead end job that had nice perks, but absolutely no room to grow as a individual. My mother was always on my case about not being a millionaire at the age of twenty- two. There was so much stress and anger and sadness and disappointments.
Now, I’m so much happier. While I still don’t have an absolute plan for the direction of my life, I have a rough idea of what I want to do and be. I can see that my future is bright; it’s filled with lots of love and amazing people! I’m on my way to being a professional photographer which is something I’ve always dreamed of. I’m writing more which makes my heart happy to do so. It is difficult to see the light sometimes, but I think of the future. I want to be happy and fulfilled and be with the people that inspire me. My mom is still disappointed that I’m no millionaire yet, but she’s definitely laid off. Maybe because she sees that I’m happier on my new path? Who knows.
I’m also much more confident as a person. Just a couple days ago, I submitted a few photos to my school’s gallery. While I know they aren’t good enough to be in the gallery, I’m just glad I did it. That’s something that I would have never done before! I’m no longer afraid to make jokes and be me. People’s views of me hardly matter to me anymore. I do what I want with no apology!
I’m going to give credit where credit is due: I wouldn’t be here on this blog if my boyfriend hadn’t inspired me. Whenever I was feeling down and not one hundred percent myself, he drove me everywhere. To the beaches, to hole-in-the-wall coffee shops, and so much more! He always wanted to take pictures of us. Pictures of our dates, our lunches together, our naps together… so many photos! We mainly kept our photos on our personal Instagram. Then I had the idea to create a page for just our adventures! I recently deleted it because it was difficult to maintain two Instagrams, but then I got the idea to start a blog! Hence, this is what you see here! He’s my muse and my inspiration for exploring and being more adventurous. This blog is a record of how much he inspires me. He’s taught me to be adventurous, to live life on my terms, and to love more than I could ever hope to love. I credit him with the majority of my growth, but I have to give credit to all that I have met within the past year. Without everyone, I wouldn’t be who I am. Whether they have stayed or left my life I will always love and cheer them on.
How much have you grown within the past year?